Becoming Melnie

I almost feel like I'm in the movie 'Click' where the guy has a remote and he puts it on autopilot. It kinda seems like I'm on autopilot right now. To say the least, my life as a home daycare provider isn't exactly what I expected. It's not really negative or positive right now. I'm just here getting things done and the days go by so much faster. Of course part of that is by the time 5:30 rolls around I'm so exhausted I can't think and all I can do is sit and watch TV. My life feels a lot like it's been put on hold and I'm sitting here waiting for someone to push the play button again.

I know things will get better. I KNOW this, which is how I can continue on and not get depressed. I'm really not too upset about this life changing experience but more overwhelmed. I have really enjoyed getting this little daycare off it's feet and it is all coming together. I can only hope that the parents can see how much effort and love I put into it all. I can't wait until we're completely moved in here and I never have to return to the other house and can actually have the time to unpack the boxes here at the daycare-home.

I little bit about Melnie- My name is actually Melanie but I am henceforth known as Melnie. It's the only way the kids can pronounce my name and I've actually grown quite fond of it, except that is when I decide to go to the bathroom or put Lilly down for a nap and all I hear is "Melnie!" "Melnie" screaming down the hallway. It is pretty awesome to see their delighted faces when I come back out though. I have really grown attached to the rugrats I have here and couldn't ask for a better group of kids, except for maybe just one or two. ;) I'm still learning ways to entertain them all, especially when it rains!

I decided to start this little blog to help me relax and hopefully unwind during nap times so that I can destress myself and have a little more energy to tackle the afternoons. I know that some may find it boring or depressing but I will try to keep it positive and hopefully you will see a little insight as too how trying and challenging this experience will be for me, but also how rewarding it can be as well.